drama drama drama

hmm dont know where to begin my story.. okay so here we go, my life is pretty much sucks. my bestfriends  been actin cold, my parents hate me, so basically my life's just a cracking pie. everything is a mess and i dont know how to fix it. ive been having sum troubles in my love life relationship and trust me it really sucks to the very core. so, there are dis 2 different guys, but oh well.. it didnt work out. yeah, both of them. so why bother to tell you the story?

frankly speaking, i dont know where i stand rite now. i mean, i know im a 22 year old girl and im a college student. but im really lost and i really dont know what i want in this life. i know, it has always been a problem for me, yeah figurin out myself, looking for what i really want in dis life.. pursuing happiness and all dat gold.

i need some directions, a guide to a peaceful life. ive never feel dis far with god before.. and now, i admit that i rarely pray and i kind of forget how it feels to talk to him, to be near him and live under his Will. u might wanna help me to get thru dis shit. it's like livin in such an empty life, a life without light. it seems like everything i do brings me nothing but disaster, seriously, my life lately is so far from blessing.

often i feel like i wanna disappear, to a place so far that no one could reach me. i wanna have a new beginning and completely forget my past. but oh well we know dat no matter how far you go to disappear, you'll come right back to the place you first begin your life in. there's no achievement, no goals.. i am a complete loser man, seriously i need sum help.

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